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Apparently Bear’s Come-to-Jesus talk is working. I’ve been more productive than usual and last night the only dream I remember was one where Bear kept falling asleep in the grocery store despite me waking him up over and over. I don’t know why, but I totally didnt get enough sleep last night and am currently clutching my coffee like it’s the only air available to breathe. I am also banging out a pretty decent abstract. Bear said yesterday I need to keep talking if I’m going to get through this, so there might be more updates than usual while I get through this. Pssst. Y’all wanna know a secret? It’s a little shameful for a ECE graduate. I use this webpage almost daily. Also, I was the one that introduced AJ to the phrase “Come-to-Jesus talk”. Not surprisingly, those of Jewish descent don’t really use that phrase. (Linda, lyric is “this is the last song that I write while you’re even on my mind” from Noah and the Whale, “Blue Skies”)
Its making me sad that a post titled Total Failure is up top on my blog. So despite having both too much and too little to say, I’m dropping in. I had meant to do a year in review for 2011. I might do it anways in a little while. I do love them because they allow you to see the year as a whole and that tends to be a hard thing to do otherwise. Bear and I have been a little homesick lately. We went to visit his mom’s for Christmas. It was an amazingly lovely visit. Bear and I played and relaxed. We had lots of good food and conversation and celebration. I’m extremely happy that I’m developing a good relationship with my mother-in-law. She’s an admirable, complex woman. I even liked the traveling to and from because Bear and I rode the commuter rail and taxi and plane together. That’s kinda sappy isn’t it? I’ve also been a little freaked out. I’ve had many many nightmares about awful job interviews and defenses and meetings with my advisor. Every night for about 3 weeks now. Bear had to try and give me a come to Jesus talk last night because I’ve been rabbiting about like I can somehow avoid my thesis and defense and getting a job. Didn’t help that I was feeling kinda adrift because I hadn’t heard from my advisor in weeks despite sending her emails. Just found out today though that she WAS sending stuff. Apparently my school email got cut out. Apparently also, I should have said a lot freaked out. I really want to finish if only so that I can get out from under all of this mess. (linda, I stole the lyric from fun. “the gambler” except the real lyric is we’ve got time left to be lazy.) I bummed out on that challenge didn’t I? Well. It was fun while it lasted and I don’t mind too much that I lost track of it at the end. To conclude, I’ll leave you with Bear’s funnies from last night: Bear is shivering under three blankets on cold sheets. I’m shifting them to rub his back. He’s barely gotten any sleep the previous two nights and I desperately want him to get good sleep despite the early hour. “Emmy, I’m cold.” “I know. You’ll warm up quick. Just wait a minute.” “Make them stop?” “Make who stop?” “The antimatter. Make them stop.” Bear’s eyes close. “Antimatter? Stop doing what?” “Two balls of antimatter…” Bear’s breathing gets heavy. “What???” “…are sucking up all the heat.” Bear snores. I laugh so hard he wakes up a tiny bit and mumbles at me. I pet his head until he drifts off again. Bear gave me the video, which is just ADORABLE. But I love the song too. Change of Days by Smith’s Cloud |
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