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November 2009
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Proof without words

So Bear and I were talking the other day in the car while on our way to the big furniture store with the IMAX, and we got to talking about the fact that Bear got my necklace at a certain jewelry store. We had just passed it and Bear recalled going in there (although not that specific location) with a cashed paycheck of a certain amount determined to find something nice for me. Realize I was in my teens at this time and Bear and I had known each other almost exactly a year. My comment to Bear when he tells me about going in the store and finding my necklace was that I was awful young back then and he was crazy to spend that kind of money on me when he had so little himself. His response? “You were and are worth more, I just didn’t have it back then.”

Bear has always given me everything he has and more.

Giving Thanks

Thanksgiving and another birthday have passed and while I will do a big year reflection at the end of the year, I want to look back a bit.

There’s a lot I am thankful for. My health, my family, our relative wealth that enables us to buy a house, have a great Thanksgiving, visit our family for Christmas and a supportive family that enabled us to have a beautiful wedding. The very important friendships that keep Bear and I going. All of these things I strive to never take for granted. Bear and I have material possessions that make our lives easier. We have jobs which is never a small thing, but is even bigger in the current economy. We have a great apartment without even looking for a house. We have really awesome people that we get to talk to on a near daily basis. We have each other.

But I’m not focusing on that, despite it being very very important and relevant to the season. I instead want to talk about how far Bear and I have come. In the last two years we’ve gotten married, made friends, lost friends, lost family, traveled, helped friends financially and emotionally and physically, we’ve started the process on buying a house, we’ve bought appliances and participated in the craziness that is Black Friday, we’ve fed family and had them visit. Bear and I have gotten closer to each other and our families and friends. We’ve saved money. We’ve lost weight. We’ve gained weight. While this list isn’t everything and maybe even if it were it wouldn’t be as momentous as some people’s lists, I like to revel in Bear’s and my life. We work for it and we enjoy it and each other. I think this Thanksgiving is about more than giving thanks for me. This Thanksgiving was about knowing that I’m enjoying my life and living it. That no matter what tomorrow brings, I’m so happy that Bear and I were here and that we lived and loved and tried.

As long as it’s not an oncoming train.

I am sore from climbing around in my eventually-to-be attic. I also had wood in my hair from brushing against the lumber and I was itchy from the fiberglass. I’ve since showered. We have metal crap in our eventually-to-be creek that needs to get cleaned out. This is making us :( but at least we can play and mess around back there and no one is going to get eggs-up eggs-up at us if we put in a tiny bridge for example. I will return to the land of the living eventually, but the husband and house and keeping my advisor for freaking out on me are all taking up the most hugest biggest chunks out of my life currently.

I have seen the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s called Christmas.


Deciding to buy a house while being a TA for a class with a brand new professor… I want to say it was not well thought out, but it was. I want to say that it was an awful choice, but it’s the only one we felt we could make. What I really want to mean is that it is resulting in one of the most difficult times in my life ever. I’m so excited for 2010. New house. No TAing.